A Poem by Carmelita
Carmelita is a part time staff member who also participates in several AccessCNY mental health programs. She has been positively impacted by the peer support system! As a result, she wrote this powerful poem inspired by the relationship building of peer supports. Just last week she went to a training on mental health peer supports. Here she is posing with her colleagues from all around Central New York!
If You Could See What I Feel
“If you could see, What I feel
I wonder then, would I be understood…..
If with empathy, you could see
I once had hopes with possibilities
How I have struggled with my past, with little or no dignity
But, most importantly, that it had been stripped of me
When I needed help and wasn’t taken seriously
When my hurts were medicated, not even cured
I searched for connection, but not one was pure
I wasn’t looking for sympathy–empathy would have broken the barrier
Yet no one dug deep enough, so I alone was the carrier
I use to never feel like myself, I felt the need to wear a mask
Just waking in the morning, was viewed by me a task
Assumptions made about my life when I just wanted to be clean
If you could see my Worldview, you’d see things differently
If for one switch in time, I could live my life undefined
Instead just Empower Me! my soul screams
Because forever, I’m in recovery
I wasn’t seeking attention, otherwise I would live on the mention
Of medical language, conditions and diagnosis
But through genuine Peer Support, those voices are frozen
You see, I’ve had all my life to think about the things I have learned
There were some “AH HA” moments, and topics and situations that burned
Like: “If someone talks of suicide, would it make you squirm?”
Would you honor that individual, to sit, listen and maybe learn?
If you would see What I feel
I think you’d finally see
Why I view my world from “IMPOSSIBILITIES”
By: Carmelita H.